yippee skippy, i passed the senior exhibition. damn, im tired and i still have some stuff to do. eh, i wanna blog first. i kinda just got home. talk about a long day. well it seemed long. [long blog for meanass maricel] okay well of course i woke up worried and crap about senior exhibition. hello? im the worry-wort remember. anyways yes but one of my visuals wasnt working and i was running around campus from fourth to about fifteen minutes before my exhibition looking for a fing zip drive. but luckily the great people in the magnet office/comp. lap let me borrow one. thanks. they were like the only ones who freaking helped me out, shit. but anyways, i passed that shit. woohoo. hooray for me. eh and after my exhibition i was so relieved. good lord. and then i saw maricel so we did some crazy talk while we walked to my car. haha. noe what im sayin? and we felt all proud of ourselves so we wanted to go celebrate and eat so thats what we decided to do and we saw dexter in the front of the school so we picked him up and then we went to ruths house. ended up staying there for awhile and more people came. so then we finally went out to eat but ended up eating at jack in the box. then me, dexter, and justin went to justins new HUGE house. haha, its purdy kool. i love it. i wish i had one of those. and justins bed made me really sleepy. i want his bed too. then we went back to jack in the box to meet up with everyone once again. and we got free supersoakers, SCORE! that was pretty fun. rey thought he was all gangsta with that gun or something. what a dork. hm..then we went to green tea house and then decided to go check out our beach house. that was purdy dope. i dunno. im tired.
so yah, i dunno why he was mad. trust me i really really wish i did noe. and i wish i knew what to do or anything. cause i dont understand it. i dont understand anything. what im feeling, whats hes feeling, what im thinking, what hes thinking? i mean i have some sort of blurry idea, but i wish i knew exactly what everything was. eh, im not complaining, trust me. i mean of course i wish everything was easy, who wouldnt? but i dunno. if i could go inside his head, i would in a heartbeat. i wanna understand. really i do. and dont think im just saying all this crap cause i really mean it with all my heart. i wanna help u, i wanna be there for u. i AM here for u. i dunno what to do unless u talk to me. i wish giving u the biggest hug in the world could make all your problems go away. i dunno. i care for u so much. sometimes i even think if i 143? yah i noe, its crazy, but if thats what im feeling, then thats how it is. cant change it, cant fight it. and i really think thats what im feeling. and maybe u noe that or maybe u dont, but i dunno what to do. i need u to help me understand what im feeling, or what we're feeling. i dunno. too many thoughts..i think i should go to sleep. what a day.
dont worry about maricel, i think shes just going crazy. haha. joking. im stressed out man. im nervous, i dont noe exactly what im saying tomorrow. im just being very paranoid. hell thats what i do right? i better pass. well after exhibition tomorrow, its kinda like the year is coming to an end. man oh man. can u believe that? well good luck to all u seniors doing your exhibition tomorrow. i hate senior exhibition. too much work. im kinda sad cause i havent even talked to him like this whole week because of the stupid portfolio. sigh. i called him today but he wasnt home :( oh well, hes probably working on his too. i miss him. i noe i noe, im such a loser. eh well, what can i do? i think i better go to sleep now, im really tired. gooDnite gEeks. [i'll write a really long blog for marcell next time, haha]
people erk. i cant get into that now cause i still have more work to do. sucks. but people need watch what they do for the next few days cause i might just blow up. why am i getting all pissy? eh i dunno. need to think good thoughts. guess who im thinking about kraft. maybe i should go call. ah wait, i have to get back to work dammit. okay, maybe later. bye gEeKs..haha.
HELL YAH!! take it to the house..the beach house. prom weekend sounds like fun now. yippee..now all i have to do is talk to thingy. wish me like suckas..
dont worry ruth i have a blog of my own too. i think im gonna write more in that blog now. well i havent gotten anything done yet. im so procrastinating on everything. im so gonna stress out, i feel it. and what sucks is whenever i have a lot to do or worry about i swear my parents always just add to the crap. they dont even noe what the hell im going through. this sucks. yesterday was purdy okay. i wanted to go drive somewhere in the morning but no one wanted to go with me and i was hella lazy to get up and get ready so i ended up lying in bed thinking about u noe who. eh, but justin called me later and wanted me to go with him but i didnt wanna pay no 12 bucks so i sed no. but it was kool cause i had to go to my nephews birthday party. hey when i was getting ready, maricels song came on the radio. no not that song, the ta-dOW, how u like me now song. haha. made me smile. the birthday party was pretty dope. talk about bomb ass food, even though im still sick and i cant really taste it. eh, but it was funny. my nephew wanted a toy gun for his birthday but no one was gonna get him one cause we dont want him to be violent. man i tell yah, those crazy video games do have an influence on little kids. but anyways, he didnt get one but there were little plastic toy guns on his birthday cake. it was supposed to be some james bond 007 theme on the cake but it looked more like a groom figurine thats supposed to be on top of a wedding cake whos lost in the forest with some guns and a suitcase. funny party though. i love playing with babies. they make u not think about things. but yesterday when i was playing with my other nephew, dimitri, i ended up thinking about dexter. playing with dimitri only reminded me of the dream i had the night before. it was a nice dream of me and him playing and taking care of my nephew. eh i dunno, im not gonna get into that.
sometimes i wish i could read peoples minds. or that someone from up above or something could give me a really big sign of what to do. i really dont noe. i think ima go blog in my other one about all this. okay, bye guys. hey..has anyone seen grace? haha, she hasnt blogged in a while huh? hey GRACE, where are yah? haha.
