so..i dunno. very long conversation with him. havent had those for like a while. well we have but this one actually felt normal. u noe? like how everything used to be before asb ball i guess. man i miss dexter a lot. but the weird thing is that he isnt gone or anything. and i mean i still talk to him and everything, but i miss him. or maybe its more like i miss how everything was. he does too. the weird thing is, i though i was going crazy and thinking up and feeling all this weird crap, but at the same time he was going through the very same things i was. actually its more like we ARE going through the same things. all along i thought i was crazy and i didnt noe what the hell he was going through or thinking about when i guess at the same time i did noe cause we're thinking and feeling the same. i dunno, but im happy i talked to him. its feeling pretty normal now. like we actual talked like we always did and we actually talked about "us". i feel better, hope he does too. man i told him stuff that i thought i would have never told him. good lord. i dunno. man i really like him. okay okay, i really really really really...like him. [sigh] maybe i fell? i dunno. i miss his hugs too. i miss my "nerd". hm..but im glad we talked today. everything seems a little better now. geez, i cant even put into words how i feel. hm..i guess all i can really say is that he makes me happy.

posted by camille | 10:25 PM