damn, i swear could "friends" be anymore about me or what? its so funny. well, actually it isnt but how it relates to "friends" is. yah, well today kinda started out all depressing eh? sorry guys i felt all sad today cause today was my grandpa's death anniversary. gosh, i miss u grandpa. sometimes i wish he was here to comfort me like he did when i was little. i was a big loser when i was small and on those nights when i would wake up and couldnt fall back to sleep but scare myself half to death about the dark he would come sit in my room until i fell asleep. [sigh]
but anyways, ive been thinking [big suprise]. okay that whole essay thing about life being difficult is so true. i mean yah life IS difficult; why do we keep thinking its supposed to be easy? okay, well what ive been thinking about is the whole acceptance thing. i mean if we just accept things, like the fact that life is difficult, then life wouldnt be AS difficult, or to make it sound more appealing, life would seem easier. so like if i just accept how things are right now, my life would be so much easier. but i also have to remember the whole easier said then done thing. ah well, give me some time dammit. damn am i talking nonsense or what. sorry, im really deep into thought right now. for some reason i have this quote from "the wedding planner" in my head. it doesnt really apply to me that much, but ima type it anyway. "have u ever liked someone, but the timing was off? way off. you feel things that u shouldnt be feeling...im not making sense" haha yah i memorized it, hello its me the lamer remember.
damn i want to watch "a walk to remember" so bad. i freaking downloading some of the songs and crap. the book was hella good. damn could this be anymore of a chick flick. damn he better take me to see that movie or ill get mad. god i wish things could go back to what they used to be, dammit, i always wish that. okay rewind. yah right? eh, i think i have more to say but i tired. i wanna watch "friends" again. dude if u watch last weeks and this weeks episodes of "friends" you'll kinda understand what im talking about. hehe..alrite time for this chick to shut up. [shutting up] byes..oops!
finally that f-ing project for ms hammond is over. geez i swear enough with the group projects. so when are we gonna get the next one? like next week? geez, i swear. hey ruth, we're not obsessed with school, we just got our priorities straight, alright? hell we all got good grades in poli sci right. alright then. senior ads picture on monday at 2 i think. man we have to take them this weekend cause everyones going snowboarding next weekend. shEt, i dont even noe if im going for sure. cause my rents noe im going but they dont noe that im sleeping up there for two nites with the guys, ha. we'll see, no point in stressing about it. damn maricel and grace need to chill about the whole snowboarding trip. what lamers, just kidding. who am i to talk, me and ruth bought chucks. hAahHhahA! kool girls, not! at least im not trying to buy a matching belt! did u guys watch friends? oh my god do i so relate to it. [sigh] oh well, whatever happens, happens. does it sound like i dont care about anything right now? ah well, i do, kinda. i dont wanna care. life is difficult. after that whole essay for english i keep thinking about that. haha, what a nerd. i really dont noe what the hell im thinking right now. i cant wait for the next friends episode. actually i cant wait to see how everything turns out- in the show AND my situation. man where would i be without this blog. cause blogging is great when u have to release some of the crap u have to deal with you noe. i mean yah you can talk to your friends and stuff but sometimes u cant always say everything and blogging is just so dope. but i hate when people be reading it and shEt and they swear like they noe whats going on in your f-ing life. i mean yah feel free to read the blog and stuff but dont come up to my fuKin face and act like u noe whats going on. i mean shEt, dont come to me and talk about whats going on in my life [keyword here is MY] when i never fuKin told u about it, alrite? because if i want to talk to u about it, i will. so please dont be trying to read this and act like u have any idea of what im going through cause u dont. alright, sorry but some people are just irritating.
