school is sucking really bad right now and its only been three days. can we graduate already? yah right, i'll be all sad. i should working on all my crap right now but im not. its not that im lazy, well okay a little bit lazy, but i would say im a little distracted. yah thats it. geez, i need to focus. okay one, two, three focus..eh? in a few minutes. its one of those weeks again, when i cant wait till the f*ing week is over. oh well..okay gonna go back to work. ten bucks says im gonna fall asleep in like thirty minutes. im sOoOO tired. nite guys!
aWw..graces blog makes me sad. well here i go feeling sad again. i swear is the world against me or what? does everything in my life have to suck? okay, maybe im over exaggerating but it seems like it. family and friend wise im doing good, but the whole boy and school thing really sucks right now. okay, maybe its just in my head. i dunno, well school sucks a lot; im serious. watch okay, we just got back and heres what i have to do. we have that stupid movie group project for english [we just finished a group project!] which is like due in a week or something. i have a test in math this week when i dont even noe what the hell im doing. we have a stupid poli sci paper due on friday. yearbook- i hate being in there. that f*ing stupid color wheel is due in art like next week, which is so f*ing hard to do, i swear. and senior portfolio is due on thursday, we need to take our senior ad pictures cause its due this month, finals are almost here, didnt order my cap and gown yet. dammit, i noe theres tons more but i dont wanna think about it cause im already stressed out, whew! can u believe how much stuff that is to worry about and thats only stupid school. but the thing thats worrying me most of all right now, i noe this is stupid and i hate myself for trippin over this, is boys. okay not boys with an S but a certain boy. i cant read your mind man, your gonna have to tell me whats going on in your head. maybe im just impatient, i dont wanna push it though. i know, he'll tell me when hes ready, but is that soon? dammit ruth, can u just tell me what the hell he said. is it good or bad. im getting ready for bad news cause if i think its gonna be good, i might get let down-big time. i dunno. maybe i am thinking about this too much. fuck dude. i like him alot and i dont wanna ruin whatever we have right now, if there is something. i dunno its just he brightens my day. when he calls i get all happy and i dont wanna hang up. yah how corny but i dunno thats how i feel. dude just talk to me already, cause i sure as hell dont noe what to do. oOohHh..im gonna watch my girl. hehe. bye. blog u later, sucka!
dammit we start school again tomorrow -bOo! vacation was so much fun and now we have to go back to stupid school. yup i dont really noe what to say. whoa u noe whats weird, i didnt talk to any of the krafts today; well yet anyway. thats weird cause they were always in my face this vacation. haha. finally, especially maricel geez! i think i saw that girl every freaking day of vacation and damn she was at my house more than she was at hers. nah, im just playing this vacation was fun; it reminded me of summer. aWw..we only have so many months before we graduate. damn, and we still have a lot to do and i didnt write my senior ad yet, hah!? oh well my mind is not working. bleh. did u guys like my idea? u noe how kraft and the boys always go out to eat. well we should call ourselves "the savages"..haha u noe why? because we will tear u up! damn that was funny, i had to eat all fast cause maricel was beinig fatty girl. haha. yesterday was fun too. ew we did the stupidest things at bell. i dont noe what im writing. hm..i like him a lot guys and i dont noe what to do. at least we dont act differently around each other. i dunno i really like him. what a lamer am i. k gotta go. peace.
